Monday, March 16, 2009

General annoyance

I will not get into specifics on exactly what I am annoyed at, but I must vent. You have been warned. :)

I am so tired of taking care of things while others are MIA for extended periods of time. When the other people come are back in "action" for the short bursts of activity that we should feel so lucky to be blessed with their presence, I get shoved to the side. Nevermind the fact that I take care of things as they come up. I get an occasional "good job" and a "thank you", though I don't know that it was cutting it anymore. I am not a quitter per se, but you know I am really starting to wonder when to end a good thing. I really hate confrontation and would hate for things to end on a sour note. (Which is totally possible if something doesn't change a bit.) I feel like I am I getting used and stepped on. Other people have the ability to do what I do, but it is normally up to me. What is the point if I just get shoved aside like I don't matter? Though, I really do wonder if it would make that much of a difference if I wasn't there.

Part of me wonders if I am just changing my views on people and situations as I get older. I would have went on like this years ago, just being bitter on the inside. Now, I just don't know that I have the patience to deal with it. Maybe I am in a spring cleaning type of mood, and I am looking at areas of my life to clean up. Maybe it is just late and I am a tad crabby. (Which is possible, but I don't feel like I am crabby.) Watching a friend get treated like crap lately has really opened my eyes. I don't want to be that person that keeps going back time after time. I wonder if maybe I already am.

I guess the real question is how to you know when to call it quits? When do you take the high road and go out on a good note? How do you know when it is time? I am so very torn.

1 comment:

kristin said...

Ok, I am pretty certain that I know EXACTLY what you are talking about (because I see it too!), and even if I don't my words stay the same.
You.are.amazing. I love you to death, and have always felt you were under appreciated in some areas where we are both located. People change, the things they want change, things in general change. I know I have.
Just wanna say, that you are the shit, and I love you to death and...yeah. :)