so far so so.

I have been doing OK with my new goals. I have been in bed on time, so that is great!!! I am watching calories (well, sort of) and have majorly cut down on pop. My new best friend is iced tea. My cleaning routine is coming along. I feel like I am playing catch up but so far, I am not disappointed. I haven't exactly started exercising, but I am OK with where I am at so far.

I had to take Em into get her shots for school today. That was ummm.... fun. She freaked when it was time to get the actual shots and had to be held down by 2 nurses and me, all while kicking and screaming. As soon as the nurse was done, E politely apologized for screaming in her ear. I wiped our tears and went to the car and immediately called my mom. I was terrified of needles as a child and I remember being held down by multiple nurses to get blood drawn. I knew that she would sympathize. She did, as I was telling her that things like that make me feel like such a bad mom, Emma pipes up from the back seat. "Mommy, you are not the worst mom in the world. In fact you are the best mom in the whole world. I know you had to do that to keep me healthy. That is why you are the best mom ever." I have never gotten a better compliment ever. The fact that it came from tear stained 5 year old made it even better. We treated ourselves to some coffee type drinks as a reward for making it through. It wasn't the most ideal way to spend an afternoon, but it worked out in the end.

To make today even better, I made E's favorite dinner grilled cheese. We had grilled cheese and applesauce on the deck as a picnic. It wasn't the world's most nutritious dinner but it made her happy. Dessert was s'mores in the microwave. It was a good end to the day.

My glass is half full.

Oy! Where to begin?

First, sorry for the lack of blogging. I have probably started a post about 50 times. I get half a paragraph in and can't get any farther. I will be better... for the 2 of you that read this. :) (Hi Kristin.)

The most exciting news that I have is... my BFF is at the hospital RIGHT now and she is getting induced. Today is her due date but her OB is concerned that the baby may be getting too big to deliver naturally. She is a TINY gal, and baby's head is getting big. Either way, I am dying to get the call that Evan Daniel is here. :) My first "nephew"!!!

Halloween went well. Emma banished me to the sidewalk this year. She is soooo old now. It is stuff like that, that really makes me realize it. She was super polite and I got lots of great compliments on "what a joy" she is. :) She complimented every single house on something, the pumpkins, the decorations, the lovely sweater one lady was wearing. (Yes, she really said lovely sweater. I almost fell over laughing.) As she walked away she told everyone to have a great Halloween. It is was adorable. She chose her own costume this year too. After 45 long minutes in the costume aisle at Target she was down to Wonder Woman and a fairy. Guess what she chose? Yup, my girly girl went with the fairy. It worked out because Arabel used E's costume from a couple years ago that was also a fairy. I opted to not take B trick or treating this year. She can't eat any of the candy and the weather was TERRIBLE. Next year she will be all over it.

I can't remember if I posted about it or not, but the baby shower that I threw went well. We ended up with the perfect amount of food and the guests of honor were happy. Honestly, that is all that really matters.

Rob has been bringing up getting engaged again. I am not holding my breath, but... that means that the date that I really want to get married is possible. Come on August 13, 2011.

Don't tell anyone but I have got some SERIOUS baby fever. I actually want a baby boy. (Weird, I am so not a boy mom. lol) I have the perfect name picked out and I want to use it!! Plus, if I were to get pregnant in the next few weeks... I would have an August baby. Which would space the kid's birthdays out by 4 months each. It is very tempting. You have no idea. I am hoping that holding my "nephew" will help quell those urges for a little bit. But, oh man are my ovaries aching. I mean it would be perfect to have an August 17 baby. (All the kids on the 17th, 4 months apart.) Plus, it would leave me a year to get my body back before the wedding. Are you noticing all the dreaming that is going on right now? Geez.

That is all for now. :)

Happy news for a friend.

I posted about a friend of mine back in December who lost her sweet baby Noah at 23 weeks. I am very happy to say that she found out that she is pregnant again. They found out about the new bundle on Noah's due date, which in itself is very special. She is due December 30th. I wish her a very happy and healthy 9 months, that results in a happy and healthy baby.

(Though, I am still hoping for a boy.)

change, change, change

I am dying for a change. I am so ready to chop off a couple few inches of my hair and dye it super dark. I am so over my longish hair. This is actually the longest that it has been in years. I know why.

I have no idea what in the hell compelled my chunky butt to try on a pair of pre Arabel jeans. I am quite a bit heavier now than I was... (Ok like 20ish pounds heavier.) The SOB's buttoned! A size 9 pair of pants actually buttoned. I will not be wearing them out, b/c they weren't cute on... by any stretch of the imagination. But, my victory for the day is the mere fact that they fit!

I am really looking forward to tomorrow. My parents are taking both girls for the night!! Rob and I will more than likely be checking out the game (MSU v Penn State) with friends. I need a break so I couldn't be happier.

Also, totally going to see Twilight this weekend. Oh Edward... I love you.

yay for me!

I am really getting into this whole blogger thing, I like it waaaaay better than the dumb livejournal page that I have for the family stuff. Anywho... thanks to my darling friend Kristin, she pointed me towards this pretty kick ass site to customize my blog. (Keep on the lookout for changes... I am just digging the blue at the moment.) Due to one of their tutorials, I was able to actually make my own blog signature!! Hooray for me.
Might I just add that dafont.com sucks me in everytime I go there. I was there for hours just looking (and downloading) new fonts.

milestones

Well, I had to move the baby out of the bassinet part of the pack-n-play. She was standing up and jumping up and down. She is not even 7 months old yet. I think that she is loving the crib though, she has a ton more room.

Em informed me today that she wants a princess tea party for her birthday. OK, I can handle that, I think. Except, I will not be paying $250 for some tea party place. Can you say insane??? Plus, I am guessing that if the Disney trip pans out we can go a little more low key for her party. I mean, she is going to be 4, she doesn't even really have friends. lol I have a couple people (and their kids) that would come. I have no idea how to make a princess tea party fun for boys. I think that I am going to make her another tutu dress that is pink and purple for her to wear. Maybe this year we won't have a crazy snowstorm so people actually show up.

Rob and I had a good talk last night. I brought up the fact that I am ready to give up on the idea of us getting married. I know that we will be together, but I want to do it the way that we both want to. Rob said that he wants to get me the ring that I deserve. (all together now... awwwww) The thing is, it seems like there will always be something more important to spend money on. He mentioned maybe the spring. I don't know, I am not getting my hopes up but at least this way I can be extra surprised and thrilled when I actually get a proposal. He thinks I am funny b/c I look at bridal magazines and have so much planned out. lol

A friend of mine took pictures of the girls when we went out to lunch, and she is using them as samples on her webpage and blog. She has decided that she would try her hand at a small photography business. Plus, she said she would take the girls pictures anytime for free! Hooray!

I wanted to say that I feel like I have been really negative lately. I am hoping that changes soon. I am making a effort to not be so negative all the time.

OMG!!

(When you read the title, please say it in that valley girl voice, and only say the letters as if you are speaking in txt language. It makes me feel young and hip. If only to amuse me, do it.)

OK. I could literally pee my pants at the possibility that was brought to my attention about 20 minutes ago. I look over and notice that Rob is looking up what seems to be some sort of travel site. Normal occurrence as he is basically the travel bitch when his dad is traveling. I guess typing in travel.yahoo is too tough for him. Oh well, more billable hours I suppose. Anywho, so I ask (kind of snottily might I add- whoops) what he is looking at. He then informs me that we need a vacation. Uh, no shit Sherlock. Our lives have been a whirlwind of poop and mouthy 3 year olds, mixed with him working like a bajillion different jobs and school. (Wow, I really am a plethra of tangents today huh. Good thing the only people that read this know how loopy I am, and still love me for it.) He was looking at airfare to Orlando. Hooray for warm weather in December!!! Oh did I mention that he brings up the fact that he would like to take the girls to Disney? Big kicker here... ON EMMA'S BIRTHDAY. I have a princess that would DIE if she actually met princesses, and Mickey and the gang. He wants to stay on site, and have breakfast with the characters for her. He is totally going to win the best dad ever award. I will never be able to live up to that, but hey I will take it for the Disney trip!!! We would also drive down to the Boca area and see his family. (Who I have never met, by the way.) We would end up staying there for a day or two and drive back to Orlando to catch the flight home. Looks like I have some serious Disney forums to scour for info. I want to do this so bad. Emma would die. She just might be good for the rest of her life if we do this. (OK, that would never happen, but it is a nice dream- OK?)

On a totally different note: I get a call from my dad tonight. Weird. He is a little... ummm... well... not with it anymore. He had a really bad motorcycle when I was 16ish and hasn't been the same since. He used to be an electrical engineer, he designed robots. Now, he gets jobs at equal oppurtunity employers. True story, he is the head janitor at a place that hires people with head injuries. (Holy another tangent.) Anyway, phone rings Daddy-O on the line. He tells me that I am invited to the big family Christmas. Insert gag here. It is with his side of the family. The side of the family that insisted that we all go to church together for my grandma's 80th birthday to surprise her. I was a bar manager, and didn't get off work until 4am. I drug my tired ass out of bed at 6:30 to get me and the family ready for church. We all show up and dear ole grandpa gets up to introduce his whole family to the congregation. He forgets my effing name. Seriously. So glad that I got up for that. I stop by my mom's house after church to tell her about the mortifying experience... she literally makes me a drink at like 10am because spending time with them... required alcohol. (Another tangent. Man, I am on a tangent roll.) He took the time to call like a month early so I am pretty much stuck going. Sweet, now I get to drive 3 hours there to hang out with a family where I am the black sheep (the bro-ham takes part of the heat too) and then, pack up 2 cranky kids and drive 3 hours back. Then, I get to get all of Emma's birthday party stuff ready for a party the next day. But, hey at least I know that sunny Orlando will be right around the corner. I swear to God, if it is not sunny in Orlando I will freak out.

My MNO update

I went to the mom's night out hosted by Lansing Moms Like Me. I honestly had a great time. (OK minus the kind of snooty bitches that sat by us. I don't think that it was intention, but they were a little bitchy. Though, they may have been slightly intimidated by me and Tamara. We pretty much always have a great time when we are together. lol) We got there and signed up for door prizes. We all got 4 tickets to the MSU women's volleyball game at the end of the month. I also got a really cute canvas bag for being one of the first site members. (Totally geek moment there.) I won a t-shirt/magnet/pink pen package, I got another tote bag too. They were giving out free massages and had great food. They had tons of great prizes too!! The site manager told me that they are hoping to do it once a month.

Great night all in all. I am really hoping that the days ahead are as good. :)